It sucks. It is sad, it is lonely, it is heart breaking, it is life changing, it is painful, it is tragic, it is pathetic, it is devastating, it is depressing…it is just so damn bad. You feel as if your life will never go on. There is a void that can never be filled because there is no other love in this world like the love of a mother. There is so much that she has missed and will miss. It rips you up and tears you down. You feel empty, you feel lost. It leaves a huge gaping hole in your heart that will never, ever heal. It messes with your mind. It brings anger into your heart, anger than you know your mother wouldn’t want you to feel, but you feel it anyway. You’ll miss her, probably more than you’ll ever miss anybody in this entire world. It’s a roller-coaster of emotions. One minute you’ll be at peace with her death the next you’ll feel the heart wrenching feeling that she is never coming back. Hearing her name will pull at you, it will leave you feeling unsettled, especially when you know that she is missing extreme milestones in your life. It is dark, it is upsetting, it is miserable. There’s regret, there’s guilt, and there is an extreme feeling of loss that could never, EVER, EVER, be replaced. But when you think of her, as a person rather than a lost loved one, and all of the moments the two of you have shared together, each and every lovely memory will flood through your mind. Think of her before she died, the love she had for you will always outweigh her death. She didn’t leave you because she wanted to, she left because there were other plans for her, and she was greater than this world. When you think of your mother, you feel happiness, you feel content, you feel loved, you feel overwhelmed, you feel enamored, you feel comfort, you feel lifted, you feel blessed, you feel honored, you feel inspired, you feel hopeful, you feel strong, you feel brave, you feel encouraged, you feel like you again. And when you finally realize that life continues on, you realize you are here to live it, and live it for her. You remember the kind of life she wanted for you, and that’s a happy life. You feel her in the wind and you see her in the stars, she visits you in your dreams and she guards you with all of her heart. But most importantly, when you think of your mother, remember that she is constantly guiding you and sending you love when you need it the most. You will feel refreshed, you will feel her hug, you will feel her heart and that is when you will feel brand new. And each and everyday you will realize that you have all of these feelings because you were lucky enough to call her your mother.
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I just wanted to say that I read your blogs and absolutely love them and connected with them instantly. My mom passed away when I was 15 from her 11-month stage four lung cancer in 2011. Thank you for sharing your story it speaks to me in more ways than most do.
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Thank you so much for this. I lost my Mom of this year in January 2016. She had been very sick,for a long time. I know she is in a better place. I know she is my Guardian Angel. I’m so thankful for that. It has been a long road and a very hard time. Thank you Christina
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I lost my mom March 30,2013 from stage 4 uterine cancer. She was 51 years old. I can completely relate with you. Thank you for writing these heartfelt words.
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I lost my Mom on August 19 2014 to Stage four Lung Cancer, she fought very hard to survive, but lost her battle 4 months later , your Blogs are the only thing that gives me comfort, Thank You for that comfort
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I lost my mom on July 3 2014 a month before my son was born. She died with heart diases, When I lost her I felt like a part of me went with her,Even know I am healing still i dont got the rest of my heart back yet and i say i wont ever get it back. I missed her ever day and i missed talking to her and getting advice from her and just hearing her voice and i missed spending the holidays together.
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I lost my mother to stage 4 lung cancer on February 18, 2013. Just 4 days after her only grandsons 3rd birthday. I watched her suffer for 16 months before she finally passed in the hospital. It’s been a long road and it’s still stings to this day. Your words were conforting. Thank you.
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Thank you for this. I lost my mom
suddenly August of 2015. I connect with the sad feelings, and I’ll add “GUTTED”, a term my sister used that always seemed to describe how I feel Perfectly. I still have trouble remembering happy times. I know I have them, but the grief still overshadows. For me, it’s as if I lost my reason for living. I feel it’s all pointless, like there’s nothing to look forward to. And I have 4 beautiful children! I want to move forward for them, I know I have to find my joy, they need me! It’s just such a dark, dark
eternal tunnel.
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GG, like you I lost my mom suddenly. She was never sick a day in her life and like you I am finding it difficult to remember those good times, although i try. Every time i think off her, tears over flow. She died in Dec 2015, the night of my birthday and I miss her more than words can ever explain. I don’t know if we every really get over this lost, but i pray for joy to come back so I don’t get loss in that abyss. RIP to the mothers who have joined the Almighty. May all your daughters somehow find peace.
Thanks for sharing
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I so understand the gutted feeling, I cry and I try to have a good day and out of no where comes a kick in the stomach. It’s been 1 year as of feb 27th and I am not even close to healing. She was more then my mom she was also my best friend, how lucky was I
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Exactly how I feel…been so lost since I lost my Mom Dec 8, 2016. It was sudden, untimely death that up to this day I am in disbelief. My heart is so broken…
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It will be 4 months April 8 and I thought my heart will get better. I miss my mom terribly, her smile, the tummy kisses. How do I live now without her?
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Your words were very moving. I especially reacted to what you wrote about hearing your mother’s name…I was so relieved my three children were boys so never had to worry about naming one of them after her, especially since my husband wanted to. My brother and his wife had twins 9 years ago and I was so upset at the thought one of them would have her name (they chose other names). Even after 45 years the loss still resonates.
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I was 32 when my mother died of after her second heart surgery at age 55. She died 2 days after her birthday. My son was 5 years old. I now have a grandson, who is 2, and my heart smiles when I think about how thrilled she is watching u all. I know that no matter what, she will always love us and that will never change. I can identify with the loss that is felt, even 20 years later. I think of her every day. Some days I cry and some days I thank God for letting me be her daughter. She taught me strength and I have a strong inner core because of her.
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I lost my Mum to stage 4 lung cancer on 20th of June 2016.My life feels so empty and I feel so lost. My Mum was always there for me. It was hard for me on my Birthday without her.My Mum was my world my everything..I know she watches over me and is in Heaven now.I still cant fathom she is no longer on this earth. Thanks for the words.
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Thank you for your honest words. My mum passed in 2007 aged 50 of cancer I was 25 and I cry most days still. I can’t mention her name and it brings me nearly to my knees. I’m getting on with life per se but emotionally I’m hindered I miss her desperately why can’t I let go and heal? I’m a broken woman
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I lost my mum when 5years old…cant remember her at all…which feel guilty about…what I can say is life changed so much..and their was something missing …i felt that in every second of my presence here…
Nothing lasts…except the loneliness of heart and spirit…x
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Reblogged this on RunMyssieRun and commented:
It’s anniversary week and I’m not particularly fond of it. I try to smile through it all but this year is particularly awkward and lonely. A big thank you to Boston Strong marathoner Cyndi who posted this blog with all the right things to say when nothing right comes to my mind at this time.
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I lost my mother November 14, 2014, a cancer simular to ovarian cancer. She was strong There isn’t a day I don’t miss her. She promised to watch over me and she has. She put one of out favorite birds in my hand long enough to take her picture, before sending flew. I knew it was time to get out of an abusive relationship. She may have left her body, but her should is with me. Most days are still hard, but I find ways to cope, and on the worst days she finds ways to comfort me, and when I found the love of my life, she sent a mockingbird to show her approval. My mother may have left her body behind, but she is alway with me.
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Lovely words from all of you. Your mothers are blessed to have you for daughters. My mother is not yet gone but I worry about that every day. Sometimes I am paralyzed at just the thought. If I am like that now, how will I be when? I think your loving words will help. Thank you
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I LOST MY MOTHER 16 YEARS AGO AND TODAY AND EVERYDAY I MISS HER HER SMILE HER LAUGHTER HER KNOWLEDGE AND THE PHONE CALLS EVERY DAY SHE PASSED IN OHIO WHILE I WAS IN MISSOURI I DIDNT EVEN GET TO SAY GOOD BYE THAT IS WHAT BOTHERS ME THE MOST THAT I DIDNT GET TO SAY GOOD BYE BUT I FEEL HER AROUND ME ALL THE TIME THE TEARS STILL FLOW ON MOTHERS DAY AND ALMOST EVERYDAY AS I GET OLDER >>>I DONT THINK THE LOVE OF A MOTHER EVER LEAVES YOU BUT THE FEELING OF HER NOT BEING THERE IS A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY ALL I CAN SAY IS IT GETS EASIER SOMEDAYS BUT NEVER GETS BETTER I MISS MY SWEET MAMA EVERYDAY
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I lost my mom at the age of 16 and had no other siblings. It changed every single aspect of my life and I am now almost 60. I have never fully recovered in that there was so much I needed to learn from her but never did and it has always set me apart from other women I know. I don’t cry anymore, but there is a vague ache in me that never goes away and I just feel sort of like I’m not completely whole.
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My mother was murdered 65 years ago. I was 5. I can still close my eyes and see her. The pain never goes away. I know I’ll see her again, God willing.
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My mum was the most amazing, inspiring and beautiful person I knew, she died in 2011, from breast cancer 9 days after my 10th birthday. Today is her birthday and I still find it extremely difficult and lonely. Thank you, your words are so relatable, they have made me think positively and more optimistically, they have really been something I needed to read. xx
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I lost my mother on 25th August 2020. it is really hard, sad, lonely and painful that no words can fully express. The loss is irreparable. May her soul rest in peace eternally and I pray that one day we reunite. I love you mama
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